I have truly never ever in all of my life had a day like today. The kind of day where I literally wanted to yell HELP! It doesn’t make it easier that my husband is out of town so it is just me, the two girls, the fish and the big dog.
Taking two girls and a big dog on a walk in the morning was a huge challenge that left my daughters in tears. In fact I couldn’t even get out the door of the house to do anything – because if I got one ready and the diaper bag on and keys in hand the other would throw herself on the floor. HELP HELP HELP … S.O.S… Can anybody hear my silent cries. Insanity!
OK so clearly we all needed a time out. We all went to our respective beds and rested. OK 20 minutes later lets try this again. And the day just kept repeating itself. Like a very un-funny version of Groundhogs Day.
I told Ila she had to listen she said “no listen”
I told her she was in charge of getting her “nanny” aka lovey and she said “mommy do it”
I said she had to follow me she said “no follow me”
I tried to type Ava would knock the computer away
I walked out of the room Ava would get upset
I then explained to Ila that her teacher said if she wasn’t listening I was to pick her up and take her home. And it may have sunk in, not sure. But that just means I am punished, I have to leave somewhere I just managed to drive to – park – feed the meter – and unload two kids at. Wait who is being punished here?
Oh and did I mention no one napped today. However, there was a moment when I called Ila and she said “what mom” – she has never said anything like that or called me anything other than “mommy”. And then she asked me if I was tired and told me to lay down on the couch. And then suddenly I decided I didn’t want to quit motherhood. But she was lucky I almost gave notice.